The fashion industry is an inadvertently twisted one in many ways. Going through this whole discussion and all of the things said has made me think a lot about it and analyze myself, and why I think in certain ways.
Since I was 14 I have tried everything in my control to become a model. This entailed becoming of high fashion model size, and it proved to be completely useless as I think I’m somehow stronger than I give myself credit for, and also for the fact that my body was simply not meant to be that of a model’s. Nonetheless, I have gone through many struggles throughout these 5 years of feeling like I was never good enough, never skinny enough. Especially when you have an eating disorder, you develop this mentality that fat equals bad. Many, many people unfortunately go through this and it’s absolutely horrible. Of course I’m much healthier mentally and physically now, and I absolutely am not against bigger people or bigger models.
It was just that one “realisation” I had, that the fashion industry does this. It sets an insane standard, one that very few can achieve, and one that leaves many longing after being able to do so. Why? Because of course models are glorified. It seems to be a glamorous and wonderful lifestyle that many praise and look up to (including myself, before). Of course you want to be skinny because it’s not only about being beautiful, it’s about the social, financial, and almost celebrity-like success you gain. If it were switched, if plus-sized models were to be the overall standard, we’d have the exact same issue on our hands. And just like not everyone who is stick thin is very healthy, not everyone who is plus-sized is very healthy. It would be an issue nonetheless, either way.
It is this very insane standard that causes this chaos and drama. Arguably it’s there to make the creating easier and more straight-forward for the creators. But the point I’m trying to make is that it’s a very addictive and brainwashing chase. The chase after skinny. It’s an extreme, and thus is cancels or tries at least to cancel out the opposite of that extreme (in this case, being fat). Because in that way, it becomes easier to focus on the main target. It’s sick.
I don’t think the fashion industry is always meaning to be so harmful, but the problem lies also within the age of many aspiring models. We all know the best models start very early on. Around 15-16 on average, I’d say. At this age, and especially as a girl you’re incredibly impressionable and vulnerable. Developing an eating disorder is common around those ages for a reason, and the fact that a lot of agencies are going hard on young aspiring models, telling them they need to slim down or else they essentially go nowhere is probably where this problem stems from. I wouldn’t say I’m “fatphobic”. I think large women can be very beautiful and lovely. But I can definitely say that I’m biased in the conversation about plus-sized models because I’ve been inadvertently “taught” to believe skinny is the right thing. And it’s awful, it’s not something you really think about. It never ever made me happy. When I was exercising regularly and eating only well I was extremely happy. My body felt right, I was confident and secure about my body. But even now I’m having struggles sticking to that mindset because body issues really do stick with you.
What I stand for is merely happiness. A body type should not be a trend, it should not determine your value as a human being, nor should it become who you are or become a label. As long as whatever you are is making you a happy, content, balanced person who knows the overall importance of health, that’s all that truly matters. And no beauty standard is “right” anyway. We all have extremely different lenses through which we view the world, and as long as your view, your take, your lens is making you a happy and open person, I can only admire that.
I get frustrated with Tumblr at times, as a lot of people stick radically to one opinion and set out to destroy anyone who doesn’t share that same exact opinion. There’s no doubt a market for plus-sized models and plus-sized clothing. There are no doubt people who won’t find plus-sized models attractive, it doesn’t mean they’re “fatphobic”. There are no doubt people who won’t find high fashion models to be attractive. There’s no doubt that larger women can make clothes seem appealing. There’s no doubt that the fashion industry is twisted in some disturbing sense, as I mentioned in the beginning.
I just wanted to make sure that you all know I’m very aware of the situation, and I have proper and better thought-out opinions on the matter.
I don’t want to disappoint or offend any one of you, you all mean a lot to me and I actually really enjoy our long open discussions and hearing all your opinions. Thank you for the kind words that were said. I hope you all have a great day/night and remember to, as I shall, stay open minded.